For the convenience of most of my friends, I shall blog in English again. Ha. Today's a Saturday, which marks the second last day of my exams, that is, my bio paper which just ended in the afternoon. I wouldn't say it was a difficult paper, it should be do-able, but I wasn't able to do, perhaps I just ain't working hard enough for my grades. So much we may find the old sayings annoying, but they are true: One will reap only when they sow. So, uhumpt, LEARN.
Sometimes, it's not that I am unclear about what I want to be or to do in the future, I do, I do know what I want in my life, clear goals, clear dreams, but all these comes down to nothing if I ain't willing to put in efforts to achieve them. Isn't it? And here I am saying all these, and yet still, I am not doing anything to it. Lol. I can still sit down in front of my lap top typing in my blog Laugh out Loud. Just look how un-deserving am I.
Well, enough for the exams and grades, they are only for me to worry 3 weeks later, on the 23rd. For now, let's just enjoy life and listen to good music. Allow me to share with you guys another song that I thought, was so beautifully written and sang. It's actually the ending song of one of our local productions - Perfect Cut aka 一切完美, with the song entitled 你没想像中爱我.
Saturday. evening. forced by parents to attend this dinner when i dun know a single soul there. Ended up getting myself drunk there after 2 bottles of beer + 1 glass of whiskey.Reached home early morning, dragged myself to bath, and knocked out in my bed immediately when my head touches the pillow.
I never like to get drunk. The aftermath of it.god. I felt as though my head was splitting into halves. The whole experience was bizzare. One lesson learnt here. Never get drunkunprepared.
Was supposed to meet marcel at NLB at 10am to mug. I reached only at 11am, one hour later due to the horrid headache.reached and settled to revise my macro econs. :) the process was tedious, but I enjoyed it. I love macro econs. Marcel said I need to start learning how to protect my ears. well apparently, such remarks came about cause i was blasting music at my ears from the lap. hahaa.
I'll try, I really will. Promise.
Went out for lunch at around 2pm, brunch at mac. the quality of the food there, hmmm, there's still room for improvement, I would say. As usual, talks with marcel are alwaysinterestingandenlightening. I cant exactly remmember where we started out, but we were talking about how no choice can be a good choice, and sometimes the best choice. That was what i told her.People who know me will know that it's typical of me to feel the grass to be always greener on the other side. Yeap. Indeed, I did regret choosing NUS over NTU, but mind you, the sentence's in the past. For an indecisive person like me, giving me more choices will create nothing beneficial but more headaches. Perhaps i'm just too immature to be able to make decisions for myself. I'll learn eventually, well i have to, but not now.
The reason why i put that sentence in the past context because I have come to terms with myself, that in life, we always will have and need to forsake one for another, which is true. I forsake NTU's fun uni life for NUS's prestige. That was the decision i made, no one but myself, thus I will have to be responsible for the decision i've made. There's no doubt for that.
What will we be 10 years down the road?
I wonder...
Monday, November 10, 2008
Just some thoughts I thought I would like to share with my fellow friends.
I just had a chat with my senior aka close friend aka sister. K, this friend of mine certainly holds many different roles in different parts of my life. She was my senior when we were back in secondary school. She remained a close friend of mine when she graduated and moved on to her poly and me to AJ. She became my colleague while awaiting for school to start and now, she's my school mate in NUS. Haha. But all these times that she stood by me, I know, she's more than just a senior, a friend, a colleague, she's like a sister to me, some dear and close to my heart. I thank god/ or whoever up there, for being able to meet such a person in my life. A gift, I would say, and I really do appreciate it.
Well, anyway, I like to call her Mars in short. And just ten minutes back, we had a conversation through the MSN. We were talking about the past and a recent incident that happened between us and another peer of mine. I shan't go into details here, but all I can say now to that another peer of mine is that:
I don't hate you, neither do I hold any other form of emotions towards you. You were once a role model I looked up to, you were once someone I hold so close to my hear. You were once a peer whom I took trust in and reply upon. But all that changed the moment you chose to betray my trust. I once blamed you at that very point of time, but I don't now cause it's over and all I want to do now is to let the matter lay and be buried deep down in our hearts.
I cant practice what I preach in the past, and that is to let bygones be bygones. Perhaps I can do so 10 years down the road, but not now, definitely. Mars said you wanted the 3 of us to be back like we used to be, but perhaps, some things should just remain in the past and only for us to reminisce.
I used to wish for time to turn back to when all of us were still in CCSS. Only did I came to realise that, it is precisely the fact that we can't turn back time that made the past so memorable and impactful in our hearts. I can never forget the times we shared in Mac, the times we shared in CCSS, the times we shared in Parkway, and may others that still remain etched at the back of my head. Those were one of the most beautiful moments of my life. I mean it.
But. But. But maybe, it should just remain there, as it is, to continue to stay beautiful and unstained in our hearts. Cause, I always believe, nothing's eternal in this world except memories.
Well then, I hope I have made myself clear and yeap, that's all for today.
Listen and savour every note and word of the song. Lk'ssimply loving it!
Monday, November 03, 2008
First announcement for the post:
LEWIS HAMILTON WON THE F1 RACE !!!
Yesterday marks the end of the F1 race, last held in Brazil, with Massa emerging as the champion in the race, and LEWIS HAMILTON as the overall champion...wahaha. It just brightens up my day. I pity Massa though, ding and I came to the conclusion that the race held in Singapore was the main reason why he was one mark away from Lewis and ended up being in the 2nd position. Next up awaits the US presidency election results that will be out on Wednesday. Obama better wins. I draw no difference between Bush and McCain seriously.
While all the events fold in, my final term exams are too, around the corner. Was sms-ing mich this morning and I was shocked to find myself already a 3-month old uni student. This was how the sms-conversation goes, where it all started with hamilton and abbrev lingos:
Lk:Lewis Hamilton emerged as the overall champion for the F1 race! Wahahahaaaa. :)
Mich:(-.-'')... NOMB, hahaa...
Lk:what's NOMB? Ar. Dun care dun care. He's the youngest F1 champion in history. Haha.
Mich:Still NOMB - none of my business. Lol. Eh, you uni already, still not up to date with such stuff...
Lk:Eh. Please. I only turned to be a uni student 12 weeks ago. :S *rolling my eyes*
Mich:hahaa... 12 weeks is 3 months can. I already blend in TP within 3 months.
The moment shocked me when she sent me the last sms. 3 months, I have been in NUS FASS for 3 months. What shocked me wasnt me not realising that it was 3 months, but thespeed that time was going.too fast. too furious.
Anyway, back with my coming exams. I'm going to start my first paper on the 21/11 and will be done with on 01/12. I'm praying real hard that my papers wont fall on evenings, as picking from experience, my brain seems not to function properly when evening time crawls in. May probably be flying to China straight after my last paper to meet my mum. Well, we'll see how things go.
I have applied for an inter-faculty transfer, from Arts & Social sciences to Biz. Many exclaimed upon hearing the decision I made. Alright, people, allow me to explain myself here. I know, I know I am one who'sexceptional badwith figures, I know I havehorridmath sense. But transfering to Biz wasnt my initial intention, my ideal faculty was the Law Faculty, which I am only allowed to do so next year and only if my grades are good enough for a transfer. And please, it's not as if I will definitely be offered a seat in Biz as well, it all depends on my up and coming results. So please, just sit back, relax and let nature takes it course. :)
Even if I were to stay in FASS, I have yet to come to a decision whether to major inCommunications and New Media / Chinese Studies & Language / Geography. They're all my loves and of equal weightage and importance to me. Though I do nag alot about my Chinese modules, but I must admit, I do enjoy myself in the lectures and tutorials despite having difficulties in understanding the content most of the times. Laughs.
I love MYSELF.
I love MY PARENTS.
I love MY FRIENDS.
I love BLACK.
I love MUSIC.
I love SHOPPING.
I love STONING.
I love PRIVACY. NEVER INTRUDE.
I hate KIDS.
I hate MRTs.
I hate MAKE UPs.
I hate PERFUME.
I hate WHITE.
I'm AMBITIOUS and REVENGFUL.
I'm SHORT TEMPERED , ACCIDENT PRONE and HAVE LIMITED PATIENCE.
I'm INFATUATED with MY COLLECTIONS OF DVD/VCDs.
I'm OBSESSED with SHOPPING.
I'm BESOTTED with MUSIC.
That's simply because...
I'm lK. never JOKE around with me.
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