it's 1 am in the morning now and i'm here blogging...well, it doesnt matter if no one view my blog, i dun need anyone to do that infact, to me, this blog is like my secret territory, whereby no one knows and dares to enter. jus finished watching princess hours again, god knows i have watched it how many umpteen times. everytime i watched the show, i'm bound to tear. the song played in the show made me thought of him once again. i ever tell myself not to cry for him ever again, but my tears just dun listen to my command. it had been 4 years, 4 long years. i was only 12 years and 9 months when i knew him, and i'm now 17 in a few more days. how long more do i need to actually forget him totally. i've triied many ways, but i just cant seem to do it. my first love. or should i say my first sided love. if i could, i would really want to forget him totally. really. the thought of him hurts my badly. really. even if i made up my mind to forget him, my eyes still remember his looks, my ears still remeber his voice. my heart still remembers the words he once said and longs for him. wad more can i do. i have no idea. time heals wounds. really. if the wound was too deep? let's say time really heals wounds, but if the wound's too deep, there're bound to be scars, scars never go off, it will always stays and remind you in your heart. like a broken cup, even if you paste it back into its original shape, the cracks remains. forever. just a word. just a hug. just a look. that's all i wanted. am i asking for too much? am i too greedy? am i?